Christmas has come and gone and it was just not the same without my gorgeious husband by my side. New Year was even harder than Christmas it was the first year in 25 years that I did not have anyone to kiss at midnight it was horrible and I never new how much that meant to me until now. I now have to face a whole new year without my husband by my side, although I know he will be watching over me and Jess that is when he is not down at Cmbridge mucking about with the lighting system. I dont think I have yet come to terms with my loss I still sometimes sit and think and it does not seem real that I wont ever have that hug, kiss or just the companionship that we had together, it seems like life will never be complete again there will always be that link that is missing and what a big link it is. I still buy clothes and shoes thinking yes Steve will love these and I still look at the meat is super markets and then realise I dont buy this anymore what am I doing. I think bout you and talk to you everyday I just hope you can hear me and I know one day I will get a sign that will let me know you are ok and having fun whereever you are. Loving you always, thinking of you constantly and missing you every minute of every day. Love my darling Steve, your ever loving wife Den xxx