Its been a while baby pie. You was with me the other night you came to me in a dream and told me you was ok, you was all well and your chubby old self and it made me sad I couldent have you back with me again. Nearly a year has passed since you left me and I still look at your chair in the living room and expect that you will one day walk in the room sit down and start flicking through the cannels on your B&O tv you loved so very much. Jess had her Prom and how so very proud you would have been she looked so beutiful and I know she missed you so much she would have so loved you to have been there to tell her how wonderful your little princess looked, Im sure wherever you are you was watching her every move. This time last year I had you with me and nothing could have prepared me for what was ahead and to be honest I am still not prepared. Life without you is grim and time does not heal anything its just a stupid saying people use who have no idea. Life does go on but with a big chunk of loveliness missing that will never be replaced and the emptiness is never filled no matter what you do or how you try to get over it. We will all be doing our sponsored walk in honour of you and I hope you will be there with us, KTbec will be christning your once used bike we will all be thinking of you so make the sun shine for us. God Bless you my Darling keep the dreams coming and never forget you are and always will be my one and only love of my life with exception of Jess of course. Sleep tight my love xxxxx