Not been online for ages so need to have a chat. The sponsored walk went so well we have raised lots of money for the Steve Groom charity site and we all had a great day thanks to Katie-Bec. Christmas is fast approaching and it gets harder and harder knowing you wont be there with us this year, I know you will be there in spirit and we will be lighting the candles for you my love and thinking of you. You would love the tree we have put up in your honour but alas without a big strapping man we could not climb up onto the roof and put up the icicle lights which usually hang from the guttering. You was such big part of our family in fact the biggest part and it will be so quiet without you and no arguments over the TV how boring. I hope you know that I have tried so hard to be friends with your Mum but alas she just is not having any of it and I have giving up all hope now but I did do my very best I am sure you know. I am tuning into Crossing over with John Edwards every night so if you have any messages I will there. Every day there is some small thing that will make me cry because something will remind me of you and how much I miss you and want you back here with me but I wipe away the tears and put on a brave face because I know you will be watching saying "you silly clothed eared broken nosed bint whats wrong with you get on with life and stop being so soft" Its hard and things are not getting any easier but I look at that face a think how lucky I was to have you for as long as I did and then things are not so bad. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE THINKING OF YOU XXX YOUR BABY PIE XXX